Breakdown

I'm extremely exhausted. Have not had a day off for two weeks. It's been a very challenging period.

First off, we were involved in preparing and delivering food, drinks and dessert to the police personnel at various locations in Singapore till the 20th in conjunction with the IMF meeting here.

The number of personnel rises and falls but on average, we feed about 700 of them daily, five freaking times a day. God bless them for keeping us safe, and us for keeping their morale up.

We're talking about packing food for them in takeaway boxes like in a production line and in some places, we have to lift boxes and boxes of food up staircases to be able to reach them. Back-breaking, knee-busting, mind-screwing stuff.

After the 20th, we thought we'd be able to catch our breaths but due to the nature of the management, we had none of that. In fact, more such big orders are to follow. The company I work for is a specialist in serving government bodies. There's no way the top people would say no to them.

I'm breaking down and breaking apart.

Yesterday, I felt my body shutting down. Felt nauseous, had a bad migraine and wanted to vomit.

The moment I reached home, I just took my shower, performed my prayers, took my vitamins and my nightly glass of milk and hit the sack without dinner. Had no energy left in me to go buy or make myself anything to eat.

Don't know how long more I can last. I wonder how the people who's been in the company longer manage to survive so long. I truly respect them. This whole thing reminds me of the times I was serving in the army. I didn't really enjoy it.